Popular Post Zelda Posted December 20, 2012 Popular Post Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 At 16 years old, I lost my mother on September 4, 2003 to cancer. It was her 5th cancer since the age of 5. She had finally lost the battle. My dad, at the time, had tripled his drinking. At 3 in the morning he woke me up to ask me to go to the neighbors house down the street to ask if they would take him to the hospital. Later, they told him if he didn't quit drinking, he would only have two weeks left to live. And he stopped. Not once, did he ever pick up another beer in his life. So here we are 7 years later. In April or May, he was diagnosed with cancer. And once again, I watched my parent become very ill and just hoped he would make it. When August came around, I had pretty much knew the answer to this already. I didn't think he was going to make it to Christmas this year. Yet, Christmas is next week. A couple months ago I was told that Hospice is involved. Once I found out about Hospice, I knew for a fact that there wasnt much hope left. And today, I have finally found out what his estimated time left is. I was told today on the phone by Hospice that he has roughly two months left. And that maybe even less. Why am I telling you all this? Well, for starts, its not something I talk about very often, its not something I usually wanted everyone to know. But I have lost my mother, my grandfather, and my aunt to different kinds of cancer. I have lost other family members, but not anyone I had actually known. My other grandfather has cancer as well, and he has had it for a long time. And another reason I am telling you all this, is because its something I thought you should know. My reason for being here? Because you help me take my mind off things. No movies, tv shows, books, or video games is strong enough to take it off my mind. Only you, as the community does. I come here everyday because of the fun and wacky conversations we have. And even if I am not apart of the conversation, I still enjoy watching everyone else's conversation. I talk to Vitamin everyday, and even he didn't know everything I was going through. Nor does Azy. Yet, here I am, telling you all what I thought was probably a better idea to come out and say it, before I loose it later on. Yes, my hubby helps, and so does my goofy two year old. But I come here for the friends I have made, and the fun conversations I have with you all. And its probably better this way. No, I will not be taking a break from the site because of whats going on in my life. Why? Because in reality, my friends are long gone, except one that I can talk to on the phone. While other friends, well, lets just say its best to leave them in the past. So here it is, the short version of a story that I did my best to keep out the fine details. So I have all of you to thank for my being here. And believe me when I tell you, there is no place I would rather be on the internet, than here, with all of you. You are the one's that builds this community up, you are the one's, that have given me friends again, and I thank you all for doing just that. Thank you, and I love you all. Zelda 18 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vaulting♥Frog Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda I am crying. Seriously I am crying. I am so so sorry. I too have lost family to cancer. I cared for my grandfather as he wasted away from cancer. I can understand some of what you must be feeling. You are not alone however. I am here and I am sure many if not all the other members will be there for you to. My heart goes out to you. If there is something you need, no matter how minor just ask and I will see what I can do. I cant do much but I will do what I can. :hug: :hug: You are not alone. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harbinger Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 I'm a man of few emotions actually at school I'm known for my lack of emotion, But the one thing that make me sad is people dying from something like cancer. My heart is with you Zelda keep strong. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Admiral Ackbar Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 You have the entire support from this site! And I mean that. Anything I can do, or Ahsoka can do to help.. Don't hesitate to ask!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spectral Jester Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 I honestly dont have the words to describe what I need to say. If you and Hippie need anything, Im always here.. :hug: :hug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LiQuid BioniX Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 :hug: We are just as glad to have you here as you are to be here Zelda. We're all here for you! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sikslik7 Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda, I have also lost extended family and family friends to cancer. Today one of my high school's beloved Spanish teachers died from cancer. My aunt died from breast cancer right before my birth. She did not have any of the normal causes, a rare case. Life and memories are valued not during happy times, but the saddest of times. Most of my family has been lucky to have good health, which I am extremely thankful for. When times get tough, there is always a reason to continue. My condolences. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6mtALR3wiI 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azaxx Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 You know I'm always here to listen and talk to you. You have all the support from us on the forum. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zelda Posted December 20, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 thank you all. Sorry I dont have much to say this time, I have pretty much said it all in the main post. :hug: 's to all of you. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vaulting♥Frog Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Its alright, you dont have to say anymore. But if you need something, as I said, just ask and I will do what I can. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Admiral Ackbar Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 :hug: I may just have to reveal my "darkside" too.. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Minuette Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 I'm sorry for what has happened, glad we as a community can take your mind off such horrible things to look back at, for me, I don't go to well will this stuff, I shed a tear. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Winry Rockbell Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda, that is so tragic.... I am truly sorry for all of the things you have had to deal with and things that no child should ever endure. While this is a very trying to for you and your family, this may be a warning sign that you, yourself, should get checked out as well to ensure that if there is any issue, you catch it early. Cancer is a very scary things and i can not even imagine what you are/have gone through, but if you ever need anything including just a shoulder to cry on or a ear to listen, i will be happy to do anything i can. While it is hard, try to keep your head up and as you know, the people on this site are always here for you! From one community mother to another, i really hope that everything works out and hope that you can spend as much time as possible with him while you can. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SykoWolf Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda i consider you part of my family along with Aza..... If you ever need anything at all, im here for you, whether you want an ear to talk to or a shoulder to cry on... im here for you :hug: :hug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DocSpartanO07 Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 We love you too... I have lost both Grandfathers to cancer. It wasnt a good time in my life. This year my Aunt passed away unexpectedly, she went to bed and just didnt wake up. When I was in Iraq, I treated a 19yr old Private First Class that was involved in an IED attack on his convoy, he was the first soldier that went out of his way to say "Thanks Doc" and I would have lunch with him often at the chow hall. Very nice kid from the Purto Rico National Guard, he was killed by another IED attack 3 weeks later. I think about that kid every day, and I have been home for over a year now. I cant imagine going thru what you are, my hard times are tough, but I dont think they are close to what you have and are dealing with. I'll be thinking about you, youre a tough cookie. keep on keepin on. If you need to talk, I'm here. Some times I need someone to talk to also... 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Leonard L. Church Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 I've lost my grandfather to cancer, but you're going through worse. I'll help if I can, just need to know how. :hug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassandra Saturn Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 aw.. the same year. i lost my second uncle to lung cancer in 2003, i already lost my first uncle to muscle loss and rare form of cancer (1997) that we even don't know today. and now i might soon lose my grandma, she is dying, as far i know. my mother told me and she's having tough time living with that fact her mom might not be here soon. the most ironic thing out of it, i have ability to see far into the future, but future paths can always change. it is diffcult to see. in future, i could see my grandma die in hospital, when i told my mother this, she could't believe it at that time, because so far with predicting futures, i was often proved correct. and when doctor told my mother that grandma was dying, she really was shocked and then saddened. she came home told me, i was very much saddened to know this. i said to myself once, "why can't i be wrong just once?" i kinda knew that it could be very well last christmas with her. so gotta make best of it as i can with her. as well to try help my mother cope with the loss should it happen. i really had hard time, i mourned for 6 months after loss of my dogs, they died from diffrent instance between months. and took me almost next 5 months to get over it. it really had big impact on me. i hope you remember the good memories and for they they will be always alive if you remember them with good memories in your heart, in your mind. i hope everything goes okay for you in due time. EDIT: forgot to add (1997) 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Caboose The Ace Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 makes me sad sorry 4 u zelda i have yet to lose family mebers but i will soon sniff 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DoctorB77 Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda, I hope that everything gets better. I really hope that you dad gets better or at the least get to stay with you longer. You are a great person and I am sure that everyone in your life loves you very much. Some of my good friends are on here as well and I can live my own little life as DoctorB77. Not the real person who has a few decent friends and won't talk to anyone. I will pray for your families' health and I will always be here if you need anyone to talk to. :hug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blizz Posted December 20, 2012 Report Share Posted December 20, 2012 Zelda, I'm so sorry to hear about the tragic events that have transpired for you over the past years. Just know that you have the full support of me and this entire community if you need it. Mere words cannot describe the pain felt by losing a loved one. "Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow." 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spyro Posted December 21, 2012 Report Share Posted December 21, 2012 Elf, I, like many members of these forums, am so sorry for your loss, and have some idea what you're going through. I'm sorry that you've had to deal with so much at such a young age, it isn't right for anyone to suffer like this, regardless of who they are or their age. I'm just sorry. I don't know why, but I feel like I should just say that this is the first time I've cried in over two years. We all love you too Elf. Don't ever leave us, or ever let things bring you down or change your personal outlook. You're the best member here and I hope you'll be here for as long as the forums are online. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nofatchicks6920 Posted December 21, 2012 Report Share Posted December 21, 2012 Damn, talk about depressing... I've been told by my own parents that they don't love me, that they think I'm nothing, that I'll never get anywhere in my life, but this... I couldn't imagine how hard dealing with this could be. I'm really sorry to hear about all this. I honestly don't know if I could hold up with all that, especially seeing as how cancer tends to be hereditary, I wouldn't only be living in depression, I'd be scared of suffering a similar fate. You really are a strong person, Zelda. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zelda Posted December 21, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 21, 2012 Thank you all for all of your support. And do not worry, I am not going anywhere. Once again, thank you, and I really appreciate it. :hug: 's to all. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Father B Posted December 22, 2012 Report Share Posted December 22, 2012 Aw jeez. That sounds heartbreaking. I could say so much, but... I won't try to relate; I can't. And I'll save my sermons; it seems you need none. I just hope that you are, or will be alright. and that you'll allow yourself to enjoy this Christmas and New Year's - wherever you are, and whomever you're with. Father B. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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